Saturn

you little shit i love you

“Saturn” collage created by virgosspotlight

Saturn is my father’s distance.

His crippling shame.

My mother’s supreme rule.

Her crystallized pain.

Child preserving the role of parent.

Surviving that prison you call home.

Kissed by resilience who calls himself God.

The loneliest journey you’ll ever find yourself on.

And the discovery it was great all along.

My raw exposed skin after

rigorous rehearsal resulting in the perfect song.

Dry humor finally landing

you on stage with

the Devil’s laughter echoing every. single. room.

Harsh cold Everest Expedition winds

claiming climbers as a flag digs into mountain snow.

8848 meters up.

8848 meters down.

Rules restructured or resigned to.

Melancholy rooted, far from displayed.

It’s a Bring Your Own Flashlight invite for the deep dark.

The multi-million dollar reality check,

written out and signed to you.

The invention of that pesky clock.

A ticking melody that beats against the final moments with your heart.

The love you deny yourself.

In the mirror, staring at the wrinkles of time,

finding your father staring back.